my valentine's day for the record books...

So back in 1997 I had my first real boyfriend. He transferred to our school from the great state of New York, Long Island to be exact. He had moved down probably like the year before and dated a girlfriend of mine. She dated him all summer while she was in Europe traveling and hooking up with some guy from Kentucky. I knew she was doing this the whole summer and would see the future bf out and really felt bad for this kid. I knew he had sent her flowers when she got home and she never even called to tell him she was back in town. She was in love with Kentucky.
I was always the girl who was the boy's best friend. I hooked them up with my friends, got them together so they could make out at the party, while I sat back and waited to get home so I could burn my thoughts and sadness into my "journals". When would I find someone to love me?
That first Vday with the bf was going to be a memorable one, and I had no idea just how memorable. My bestest friend LJ and I had the brilliant plan to cook spaghetti dinner for our bfs. We also decided to bake a cake. and on top of the cake we decided to draw a huge pink heart in icing and line with red hots, etc. it was the cutest cake I had ever seen. 20 minutes later the cake had a huge split right down the middle of the heart.
can you say sign of shittiest valentine's day abby ever had to come?
Yes that's correct ladies. My bf never showed. He got a call from the ex-gf. See that day had snowed/sleeted in our city so we were out of school. It was a Friday and the ex-gf's dad had been in a head-on collision with a girl and her brother we had all grown up with. I swear, the writer's of Days couldn't have thought of something worse. The sister/brother died in the crash. Ex-gf's dad survived. My bf rushed to the hospital to be with the ex-gf and never called to let me know his change of plans. I called him at home and his mom said he was out - she had no clue who I was because we hadn't been formally introduced. I wasn't even sure if she knew he was suppose to come to have dinner with me. She probably thought I was some pathetic loser wanting her son. And that night I was. Laid on the couch and cried and "whoa is me" for hours. Never had a true Valentine and then this happens. I would never think the same of Valentine's day. Needless to say the ex-gf used him for comfort and then when she was fine she threw him out again. He was mine for the next 1.5 years.
During college I dont really remember having a real valentine. I was too busy going out and having fun with my girlfriends. Or laid up in my dorm room watching "sleepless in seattle". Now I have JA. And he's just what I've always wanted. We cook dinner in and he always sends me roses. He's a very traditional one and I truly love him for it.
So girls, just when you think it will never happen, don't hush that voice inside that says it will.

~a